許瑋倫

Life is short. Indeed short

The tearing incident

Even Jac knows about it.

"So i heard about the tearing incident" , I nodded

"Is it because of work?" , i sighed.

Based on working grounds , i think its best to keep aloof about it. What else can I say? If i reveal too much , it will put me into jeopardy . If there is sincerity in her words , I may want to talk about it. But what WC said was right , its our working relationship that she is concerned about. I must get used to it.

School starts next week . Bud and I are in different group. Sigh.

Bud sick and the bra site has to be fixed.

Will finish it first before I go for angioplasty and debridement.

Angioplasty and debridement.

Managed to figure out these terms from the game Life and Death 2.

Am I being used?

I will only be called upon when I am being relied on

I will only be remembered when I am needed of something

Then when i needed something , I just got ignored

if that is the case , please don't bother to get near me

No matter how feeble life can be , I still have a life.

Maybe its because i have grown up.

More and more insincerity start to surface and I am putting a stop to all this!!

That novel

Was a good novel i read (took me 2 days)

Thought that novel didnt reach Singapore but was able to find it (Thanks to that salesgal) . When I first read the sypnosis on the Internet , i know i must read it


There was no obligation or commitment. It's just unconditional.

He was brave enough to within all the "totures" , willingingly accept all unhappiness.

The struggle between the 3 characters was empowering with emotions. But he still remain silent , going strong upfront.

But silence wasn't what the latter wanted to hear.

And silence killed him.

As the song plays

I shivered a bit as this song plays.

The catchy lyrics remind me of the good old days . I step back a bit and somehow bath into the lights of the unforgotten moments.

Feeling a bit unwilling to let go.

The song stops.

Life still have to go on. But i will not forget these moments.

Watching myself

I have immersed myself into my inner thoughts.

Full of mixed feelings. Teary , Scared

There are a lot of uncertainity in me that starts to surface. But i chose to keep them locked for the benefit of those around me. But when things around me start to change , these thoughts start questioning me again.

Why the torture? Why inflict injury on oneself? Is it because time is running out thats why I have to face it sooner or later?

Blame in on the society , blame in on myself. To change myself for the better of the society is hypocritical. But a lot of people have chosen this way.

Keeping dormant was to look for the answers. Got me weary for days on top of the meetups with freelances and work and meetings.

Just hope that there is someone i can talk to.

5 days after 2007

Just settled down on a new project . It requires me to come back on saturdays too. Shrugs.

I seem to be able to take in solid food better now. Its only in the mornings that still gets me in a mess. Have to be more watchful.

My credit cards are suspended due to a fraud case in Bangkok. Please don't swipe your cards in Bangkok. I am a victim now.

Bud and his beau ate dinner with me today . Didn't expect him with her today as I was on heavy dosage and still feeling drowsiness but still managed to hit the notes with both of them. Wasn't used to another person beside us.

I made a blooper also. Shanxi has dog meat. Good job! :S