Watching myself

I have immersed myself into my inner thoughts.

Full of mixed feelings. Teary , Scared

There are a lot of uncertainity in me that starts to surface. But i chose to keep them locked for the benefit of those around me. But when things around me start to change , these thoughts start questioning me again.

Why the torture? Why inflict injury on oneself? Is it because time is running out thats why I have to face it sooner or later?

Blame in on the society , blame in on myself. To change myself for the better of the society is hypocritical. But a lot of people have chosen this way.

Keeping dormant was to look for the answers. Got me weary for days on top of the meetups with freelances and work and meetings.

Just hope that there is someone i can talk to.